Tuesday, October 14, 2008

How to know?

I am in quite the quandary. When I started school, I really felt like God was leading me in that direction. I felt passionate about helping others through grief with training in counseling. In the classes I have taken so far, I have learned a lot, but I am overwhelmed and stressed about projects/papers/tests on a daily basis. I feel like school is keeping me from doing so many other things that I really enjoy. I also feel like it impacts my ability to be a loving, caring wife because I constantly feel under pressure.
I realize that I struggle with getting my worth from my accomplishments and without pursuing something specific, I feel like I am not improving or doing anything for God. I know, however, that logic is faulty. I know my worth is in God and God alone. Moving that information from my head to my heart is another story.
How do I know if I am supposed to stay with this or not? Am I supposed to push through something I really dislike because I am supposed to learn perseverance, or am I supposed to learn how to get my worth from God while not having anything tangible to base my worth on (such as pursuing another career).
I truly love the job I am in now, and am finding joy in so many things in my life. Unfortunately, school is not one of them. How do I know?? HELP!

3 comments:

twiga92 said...

Why don't you take a semester off? See how you feel after that? There's not a rush or a deadline.

Dawn said...

That sounds like a great idea. Thanks Debi!

andrea said...

I feel like you are a good conselor, atleast to me you have been, i think you truly have a gift to help people, to listen and to empathize, I do wonder if you miss having free time, could you go part time to school, even more so then now? It's always a challenge knowing what to do, and often times you never really know the reasoning of things, but I feel that you should do what YOU feel is best and what YOU feel best about doing!