Wednesday, October 15, 2008
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
How to know?
I am in quite the quandary. When I started school, I really felt like God was leading me in that direction. I felt passionate about helping others through grief with training in counseling. In the classes I have taken so far, I have learned a lot, but I am overwhelmed and stressed about projects/papers/tests on a daily basis. I feel like school is keeping me from doing so many other things that I really enjoy. I also feel like it impacts my ability to be a loving, caring wife because I constantly feel under pressure.
I realize that I struggle with getting my worth from my accomplishments and without pursuing something specific, I feel like I am not improving or doing anything for God. I know, however, that logic is faulty. I know my worth is in God and God alone. Moving that information from my head to my heart is another story.
How do I know if I am supposed to stay with this or not? Am I supposed to push through something I really dislike because I am supposed to learn perseverance, or am I supposed to learn how to get my worth from God while not having anything tangible to base my worth on (such as pursuing another career).
I truly love the job I am in now, and am finding joy in so many things in my life. Unfortunately, school is not one of them. How do I know?? HELP!
I realize that I struggle with getting my worth from my accomplishments and without pursuing something specific, I feel like I am not improving or doing anything for God. I know, however, that logic is faulty. I know my worth is in God and God alone. Moving that information from my head to my heart is another story.
How do I know if I am supposed to stay with this or not? Am I supposed to push through something I really dislike because I am supposed to learn perseverance, or am I supposed to learn how to get my worth from God while not having anything tangible to base my worth on (such as pursuing another career).
I truly love the job I am in now, and am finding joy in so many things in my life. Unfortunately, school is not one of them. How do I know?? HELP!
Sunday, October 12, 2008
Mike and Monica's Wedding
Michael and the flower girls
Jason and Dawn
Bill and Cindy
Bill, Michael, and Jason
First speeding ticket
Well, I officially got my first speeding ticket coming home from Mike and Monica's wedding on Saturday October 11th. It was 11:54 pm, I was on 81 North driving through Virginia, with my cruise control set at 75. I thought I was being quite responsible, as I usually drive a mere 85 mph. Jason was catching some Z's and I was very sleepy, so I figured I better play it safe, and drive a little slow. All of the sudden, in the median, I saw lights come on and whip around as a car pulled onto the highway right behind me. It seemed rather strange, and then when the flashing lights came on, I felt sorry for the person he was after. I mean, he couldn't be coming after me, I was only going 75! And then a sinking sensation came over me when I realized, 'hmmm, I am the only person on this road, I think he might be coming after me'. I slowed down and pulled off the highway, still slightly expecting him to fly past me in his pursuit of the "other" crazy driver. No such luck. We exchanged pleasantries, and I owe the state of Virginia $125. Bummer!
I guess it was a long time coming! : ) Speedracer better slow down. . .
I guess it was a long time coming! : ) Speedracer better slow down. . .
Thursday, October 09, 2008
Personality Disorders
I am learning about personality disorders in my Intro to Counseling course. As I have been looking them over, I realized we all have some of these characteristics, just to lesser degrees. In the interest of learning here are the categories:
Wild personality disorders:
Antisocial Personality Disorder (APD): adult version of oppositional defiance disorder. Person often is reactionary to authority figures
Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD): difficulty with self-control, often test other's love for them, inadequately developed personal identity, difficulty developing relationships
Histrionic Personality Disorder (HPD): very dramatic and flirtatious- not necessarily seeking a relationship with the person whom they are flirting with
Narcissistic Personality Disorder (NPD): thinks of themselves highly, expects to be treated better than others
Weird personality disorders:
Schizoid Personality Disorder (SPD): anhedonia and amotivation, problems taking appropriate responsibility
Paranoid Personality Disorder (PPD): assumption that others are plotting against them
Schizotypal Personality Disorder (SPD): odd and eccentric, magical thinking is borderline delusional and psychotic
Withdrawn personality disorders:
Dependent Personality Disorder (DPD): passive aggressiveness, no identity beyond what others give them
Avoidant Personality Disorder (AVPD): distances self from others in order to decrease potential of others controlling them
Obsessive-Compulsive Personality Disorder (OCPD): focus on tasks and things to distract from failure at relationships with people
Very interesting. . . I am learning a lot
Wild personality disorders:
Antisocial Personality Disorder (APD): adult version of oppositional defiance disorder. Person often is reactionary to authority figures
Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD): difficulty with self-control, often test other's love for them, inadequately developed personal identity, difficulty developing relationships
Histrionic Personality Disorder (HPD): very dramatic and flirtatious- not necessarily seeking a relationship with the person whom they are flirting with
Narcissistic Personality Disorder (NPD): thinks of themselves highly, expects to be treated better than others
Weird personality disorders:
Schizoid Personality Disorder (SPD): anhedonia and amotivation, problems taking appropriate responsibility
Paranoid Personality Disorder (PPD): assumption that others are plotting against them
Schizotypal Personality Disorder (SPD): odd and eccentric, magical thinking is borderline delusional and psychotic
Withdrawn personality disorders:
Dependent Personality Disorder (DPD): passive aggressiveness, no identity beyond what others give them
Avoidant Personality Disorder (AVPD): distances self from others in order to decrease potential of others controlling them
Obsessive-Compulsive Personality Disorder (OCPD): focus on tasks and things to distract from failure at relationships with people
Very interesting. . . I am learning a lot
Monday, October 06, 2008
Sunday, September 07, 2008
Thursday, September 04, 2008
Sunday, August 24, 2008
Saturday, August 09, 2008
School
Well, I am officially registered for my classes at LBC that start August 29th. I will be taking Biblical Counseling Orientation and Developmental Issues Related to Counseling. A total of 6 credits. Please pray for me that I study well and learn what God has for me to learn.
Saturday, August 02, 2008
The Jesus I Never Knew
Quote from the Jesus I Never Knew by Philip Yancey:
The more I studied Jesus, the more difficult it became to pigeonhole Him. He said little about the Roman occupation, the main topic of conversation among his countrymen, and yet he took up a whip to drive petty profiteers from the Jewish temple. He urged obedience to the Mosaic law while acquiring the reputation as a lawbreaker. He could be stabbed by sympathy for a stranger, yet turn on his best friend with the flinty rebuke, "Get behind me, Satan!" He had uncompromising views on rich men and loose women, yet both types enjoyed his company.
One day miracles seemed to flow out of Jesus; the next day his power was blocked by people's lack of faith. One day he talked in detail of the Second Coming; another, he knew neither the day nor hour. He fled from arrest at one point and marched inexorably toward it at another. He spoke eloquently about peacemaking, then told his disciples to procur swords. His extravagant claims about himself kept him at the center of controversy, but when he did something truly miraculous he tended to hush it up. As Walter Wink has said, if Jesus had never lived, we would not have been able to invent him.
The more I studied Jesus, the more difficult it became to pigeonhole Him. He said little about the Roman occupation, the main topic of conversation among his countrymen, and yet he took up a whip to drive petty profiteers from the Jewish temple. He urged obedience to the Mosaic law while acquiring the reputation as a lawbreaker. He could be stabbed by sympathy for a stranger, yet turn on his best friend with the flinty rebuke, "Get behind me, Satan!" He had uncompromising views on rich men and loose women, yet both types enjoyed his company.
One day miracles seemed to flow out of Jesus; the next day his power was blocked by people's lack of faith. One day he talked in detail of the Second Coming; another, he knew neither the day nor hour. He fled from arrest at one point and marched inexorably toward it at another. He spoke eloquently about peacemaking, then told his disciples to procur swords. His extravagant claims about himself kept him at the center of controversy, but when he did something truly miraculous he tended to hush it up. As Walter Wink has said, if Jesus had never lived, we would not have been able to invent him.
Flavors of New York City
Horse carraige ride through New York City
One of the many street artists
Ice Skating Rink at Rockefeller Plaza. During the summer it is a cafe.
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